July 14,,2011
So I have had some time for my life to slow down being out here on my boat. I remember being about 36 years old and feeling like I was in mid-life crises. That seems pretty funny to me now, because I feel like I am in mid-life crises now! Or maybe at the crossroads Parenting my parent and becoming a grandparent myself..Interesting place to in, I think.
At 36, I was facing the fact that my kids were now all in school and I needed to go back to school to do SOMETHING! I had an associate’s degree in technical arts for Respiratory Therapy. I had worked for 11 years at Lakewood General Hospital in that capacity. I quit to be with my kids and knew I would never return to the hospital. I had taken classes at Pierce College in Early Childhood Education, and had been a substitute teacher for their Cooperative Preschool programs. So I was thinking I’d finish my Associates in Early Childhood. I did that and then went on to Central Washington University (at South Seattle Community College every night for a year and a half and then daytime student teaching) and received my Bachelor’s degree in Early Childhood Education with a minor in Elementary Education. Mind you, this was a HUGE undertaking for me. I had to retake all my math courses (high school through college algebra to be able to pass the teacher entry exam.(the math part, I had to take 3 times to pass). I had prayed and prayed about what I needed to do. I journaled…a lot. I must have filled up three or four journals. But I knew without a doubt God was leading me.
So here I am again…..in a place where I am uncertain. I prayed about going to school for the library certificate. Seems like God was telling me that was what I needed to do. It has been amazingly helpful! Now I am trying to get through my next phase of “growing-up”. That is the part where I am the person responsible for what is happening to my mom. I am trying to duke it out with her long term care insurance company and get them to pay the person I have in there on the weekends taking care of her. It’s a struggle. Insurance companies don’t want to pay out and they have all kinds of “hidden” agendas waiting to take advantage of old people. I really, really do not like them! What A major stress!
Then I am at a new place that excites me! I am about to be a grandparent. This is exciting to me! I want to totally enjoy and celebrate this new little person! How amazing God is in his creations!! And Not just one grandchild..two! Ian and Isaiah are about to be fathers. That whole idea is pretty had to wrap my brain around. Actually in some ways not, Ian has always, always loved babies and kids. Isaiah has always had a compassionate heart of any creature small and incapable of defending and sticking up for itself. So maybe it is not so much of a stretch to imagine my boys as Daddies. It is mind boggling, but wonderful none the less. My prayer is that God will lead both of them in their career journeys and help them find their ways.
When I think about how planned out my life was when I was young and I look at these two boys and their surprise at becoming parents, I just try to keep in mind that whatever we try to plan does not have anything to do with God’s plans. My job is to continue to be their parent and to love them and to love my grandchildren. Also to pray continually and fervently that God will continue to bless our family.
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