The peacefulness that brings the storms

Well it is the weekend after a fast and furious week at school. The Bookfair stuff arrived 3days early(where do I put all this stuff?) but I handled it. The case worker for the state could meet with me April 8th or not untol May 12th!!! (okay, so I need a sub for Thursday, Please) and then Wednesday night the lady from the Library endorsment program comes along and called me saying that she has the perfect scholarship for me for 50% off the price of my classes to get the endorsement. (WooHoo! Lets come up with umpty-thousand dollars for mom for school too!)
So all the excitment aside I feel an alive presence of God urging me on to become better. I met with the case worker and he turned out to be LOVELY! He is very concerned with the welfare of ELders. He's my age and lives nearby in Oakbrook and has even been to the restaurant a couple of times and he likes it a lot("Good Atmosphere, Great food" he says)So he helped me finshish figurinfg out what to do do to get some respite care at night when Sheila is at work. It was long but a good meeting.
That same day I went to find out about this Library endorsement program. It was over at Jason Lee very close to mom's house.
I met our wonderful advisor Christie Kaaland who really advocated and encouraaged me to "go for It". So I decided to go ahead and jump in and get this done. Maybe I'll have some more insight into libraries than just the check in check out and buy new books? Undoubtedly so...
Of course when I got home Alan is all about the money(I do know that it is sort of tight right now) Are you sure you want to do this when you are only going to work two more years? Well, I was thinking more like 5 more years.. and no I'll probably never make back that money in 5 years..but I need to do this I want to do this. I want to be good at my job and I also want to be a step ahead of the legislation for all Libraries to have certificated and endorsed librarians in the schools. Alan gets kind of crabby about what I want to do if it doesn't coinside with what he wants to do. So I want to do this.. but now I wonder what in the world I have gotten myself into..The month of July looks like it's filled in with classes Monday thru Thursday. But I am not going to say anything yet. Silence in this case is better for harmony than talking about it.
So After a week of Peace here I am in the thick of life but I can't help but wonder what kind of renewal I have had, praying and thinking about my life and how God moves in it. I believe that he has a hand in all that happens and when it happens so I am pretty ready for new adventure I'm about to start. I am alive in Him and He is alive in me.

The quietude of Peace

It is Easter Sunday 2010. I have been to sing praise at my church! I have been with my church family and my daughter and her husband as they experienced being at church with our new pastor, and the new people that God has called to be here at LCOP. My oldest son has moved out to somewhere..was gone when we got home from Canada. My middle son and his wife are on the east coast in New York. Those two have afound a new church family and I hope someone invited them to be with them for this amazing day. My youngest son was going to come to church but slept through, he swears he was going to come. Whatever.. anyway Alan I are out in his office he is closing out the month of March for Paktek and for Carrs, and I am reflecting on the peacefulness of my home at the moment. There is only Isaiah and Alan and I here.. it is quiet. Kind of different. But peaceful. I am ready to go visit at my mother's for a little while. My cousin lives with her and tries to care for her but I feel that it is not to be for long. I am going over to find all the book keeping for the taxes and to get Sheila to sign some papers fo the COPES program for mom also. This is one of those things I need God's help with and I know He is there but it is still hard knowing that your parent is slipping away and will not know who you are some day. But I am a woman of action..I will forge ahead and do what needs doing and grieve later. It is stormy and raining again..I need to go visit my mom. Peace..it has so many connotations.