Matt Maher - Hold us together with lyrics

I am so digitally challenged I am having trouble posting this link to the song..
Oh well I'll learn! OOOH! It just comes out right!!! YEA!!!

The busy day.".Love will keep us together"...

So here I am trying to do homework but wanting to download my too busy life.I know it is only temporary, I am missing Ian and Kate! I think about them and this song has constantly reminded me of them back in New York.

I have to repond to the article tonight for my technology class. Ah me.. Sprit radio is my buddy tonight. God you are close..and you are there I can feel your presence. Thanks for upholding me.. for keeping me safe.

Peace?? Who thought that name up for this Blog??

So It has been a long time since last I wrote anything because I came back from my spring break and had am important phone call. It was from the woman who is in charge of the Library Media Endorsement at Antioch University. "I know you weren't going to do this until next year but"... She offered me a scholarship for 50% off the tuition until December. This sounds good to me. But the committment??? Every Wednesday evening and Saturday morning until June 24th. Then every Mon., Tues., Wed., Thurs. in the summer!!! WOW ! Alan is not happy. He tries to sabotage my time..he really didn't want me to do this; but I feel like God did want me to. I am dedicated to my kids at Southgate and I feel that I have the qualities of leadership that can help make the library at this school work and the management of technology at the school what it should be for the 21st century scool.(given the few resources we have to work with) I do not think there has been a good libriran there for a while. So with all that said, I have not had a moment to get the whole thing under my belt. I have jumped into a cold pool and started swimming to keep warm. It is good for me and I know it!! But I have to tread water and dog paddle and float on my back to be able to make it! God is watching over this whole thing.There have been so many little things I see that I know He/She is in this with me. Things like profs that are not hung up about deadlines but are more "get it finished and turn it in" I like that. It is less stress for me. I do see other things that are truly bugging me at work though. My WONDERFUL para educators came down to help me on Wednesday when I wasn't there..and they deleated my inventory on Wednesday..WOW!!! okay... so we start again with Directions!!! SIGH! Anyway I need to get busy at the homework..I have had to try to get my technology skills in order pronto and I am just barely breathing above the surface of the water. I am a Digital Immmigrant and I have a long way to go!
Peace...? maybe later.

The peacefulness that brings the storms

Well it is the weekend after a fast and furious week at school. The Bookfair stuff arrived 3days early(where do I put all this stuff?) but I handled it. The case worker for the state could meet with me April 8th or not untol May 12th!!! (okay, so I need a sub for Thursday, Please) and then Wednesday night the lady from the Library endorsment program comes along and called me saying that she has the perfect scholarship for me for 50% off the price of my classes to get the endorsement. (WooHoo! Lets come up with umpty-thousand dollars for mom for school too!)
So all the excitment aside I feel an alive presence of God urging me on to become better. I met with the case worker and he turned out to be LOVELY! He is very concerned with the welfare of ELders. He's my age and lives nearby in Oakbrook and has even been to the restaurant a couple of times and he likes it a lot("Good Atmosphere, Great food" he says)So he helped me finshish figurinfg out what to do do to get some respite care at night when Sheila is at work. It was long but a good meeting.
That same day I went to find out about this Library endorsement program. It was over at Jason Lee very close to mom's house.
I met our wonderful advisor Christie Kaaland who really advocated and encouraaged me to "go for It". So I decided to go ahead and jump in and get this done. Maybe I'll have some more insight into libraries than just the check in check out and buy new books? Undoubtedly so...
Of course when I got home Alan is all about the money(I do know that it is sort of tight right now) Are you sure you want to do this when you are only going to work two more years? Well, I was thinking more like 5 more years.. and no I'll probably never make back that money in 5 years..but I need to do this I want to do this. I want to be good at my job and I also want to be a step ahead of the legislation for all Libraries to have certificated and endorsed librarians in the schools. Alan gets kind of crabby about what I want to do if it doesn't coinside with what he wants to do. So I want to do this.. but now I wonder what in the world I have gotten myself into..The month of July looks like it's filled in with classes Monday thru Thursday. But I am not going to say anything yet. Silence in this case is better for harmony than talking about it.
So After a week of Peace here I am in the thick of life but I can't help but wonder what kind of renewal I have had, praying and thinking about my life and how God moves in it. I believe that he has a hand in all that happens and when it happens so I am pretty ready for new adventure I'm about to start. I am alive in Him and He is alive in me.

The quietude of Peace

It is Easter Sunday 2010. I have been to sing praise at my church! I have been with my church family and my daughter and her husband as they experienced being at church with our new pastor, and the new people that God has called to be here at LCOP. My oldest son has moved out to somewhere..was gone when we got home from Canada. My middle son and his wife are on the east coast in New York. Those two have afound a new church family and I hope someone invited them to be with them for this amazing day. My youngest son was going to come to church but slept through, he swears he was going to come. Whatever.. anyway Alan I are out in his office he is closing out the month of March for Paktek and for Carrs, and I am reflecting on the peacefulness of my home at the moment. There is only Isaiah and Alan and I here.. it is quiet. Kind of different. But peaceful. I am ready to go visit at my mother's for a little while. My cousin lives with her and tries to care for her but I feel that it is not to be for long. I am going over to find all the book keeping for the taxes and to get Sheila to sign some papers fo the COPES program for mom also. This is one of those things I need God's help with and I know He is there but it is still hard knowing that your parent is slipping away and will not know who you are some day. But I am a woman of action..I will forge ahead and do what needs doing and grieve later. It is stormy and raining again..I need to go visit my mom. Peace..it has so many connotations.

Peace in far away places

So I am sitting in Tofino, B.C. the sky is black and hailing one minue and then it is sunny for the next minute. I have been reading a book called "A New Christianity for a New World" by John Shelby Spong. He is an Episcopal Bishop with a highly radical vision that I believe is really coming to pass.
He believes that we are stuck in inmaturity in God and Christ and must find the courage to move to the next level of our belife. It is HEAVY stuff to ponder, but it is also things that I have pondered long and hard about myself...Things that I have experiences and have lived in my life also lead me to believe that what he says has a ring of truth.
I am still only midway through this book as I am only midway through my life on this planet. I hope that someone else I know will be able to relate to what I get out this book and that God will give me clairity and wisdom to start lving in Him, as a more Christ-like person.
God is the essence of everything that has life! Praise Himfor his mighty Works!!

The new and differerent Life

So, in Jeremiah it says "I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord". I have to just keep believing this because I seem to be having trouble figuring it out. I am thinking it is because I have SO much going on that I have a problem listening to God. I sometimes have a problem listening to other people. I only hear what they are saying, but not understanding whay they are trying to convey. If I were to quiet down the insides of me, as well as the outside things that are so crazy and too busy, I could hear Him speak. I seem to keep trying to find a peaceful time, some peaceful space or some peaceful music.... How do get from here to there? I am still seeking this daily. I want a peaceful vacation next week how do I do that when I feel like I am "supposed" to be taking care of other things? It is the the search for wisdom and for peace.