I want to know why it is, that when life seems the most overwhelming and the most frustrating and we feel like there is one one to talk to we forget to pray?
Life has it's way of overwhelming me and I am always forgetting to pray or if I do pray I find that it is one of those fleeting "help me" kind of prayers. It is so hard to for me to focus and really concentrate on prayer.. and yet I am always begging people to pray for me or someone else I know who needs help.
Why do I get so surprised and and almost shocked when out of no where some thought or worry that has been heavy on my mind is suddenly resolved with an amazing perfectness? People are praying for me and God hears them. And I think he must know the deepest part of my longings and desires before he answers my prayers because they are always answered so perfectly.
I have been taking over my mother's financial and medical affairs. This is not an easy task. She has dementia. Not terrible yet but still terrible for me. She doesn't remember I am her child. It is like being an orphan before your parent is gone. I am having to figure out all of her Medicare and I am searching tor ways to help stimulate her brain to stay here just a little longer. I am sad and yet I am fierce too. this woman who raised two kids for a while in the 50's...doing all the right things for us to the best of her ability.. I want her to have everything she deserves. I want her to be happy.
God has given me angels who watch over her and me and who pray for us. Pastor James, Patsy, Ian and Kate they all pray. I see things happening in positive directions and I am encouraged!
Emmanuel.. "God with us" it is here ...Now...
